Movies and Midnight Bowling

Sooo for like several weeks now, pretty much all of January, I've gone to every single movie that has come out... and every Friday I have gone midnight bowling with friends. I've gone with Courtney, Kristianna, Tim (haha), John C., Austin, Travis, Christie, Will and Travis. Lots of bowling time lol. Also, movies... I've probably spent close to $400 on movies this month. I know that's hard to believe... but I've gone to a movie like ten days in a row now lol. It's bad. I'm hoping in February to pull back on going out a bit and working on spending some time with myself. That sounds good... even productive. I will keep you posted. :)

2009 Review

So I finally made my review for 2009... I placed it at the beginning of the month where it belongs (and where I actually started writing it lol) So scroll down a few posts and read it! :D

I'm Meeting Kathy Griffin Today!

Ok so yes I am still going to get my review out. And yes I will still get my eyes checked... just not until next week. Now, today is ALL about Kathy Griffin. I woke up this morning, saw she was in DC, and im about an hour, Nic (who is a huge fan of her) and I will be headed her way to get books signed and hopefully pictures taken. Follow my Twitter for the exciting play by play today!

UPDATE! Heres a pic!

I'm So Sorry For No Updates This Month

This is hands down the worst month in history as far as updates go. I know at the beginning of the month i promised a review of the past year, month by month, and i had 10 months completed... and i just havent been able to complete those last two months! I will try to get to it as soon as possible. I have a feeling that January 2010, altho one of my most interesting and drama filled months in my life, will simply be recorded falsely as a non event. However, when i do post my review for 2009, my intent is to also make another post outlining, or at least doing my best to touch the majors that have occured this month. Cuz theres been a lot. Probably enough to make a good book...maybe even a movie lol. Hopefully i can get to this tomorrow, however i am getting my eyes tested so that might not be possible. We shall see. I am in the middle of a furlough week from work (thank you economy) so i SHOULD have some time this week to work on my updates and then hopefully find that February is a better month for updating, or a better month just in general for me.

2009, The Best Year of My Life

So now that 2010 has begun, it is time to briefly look back at the year that just passed. And boy, what a year it was! 2009 was easily the most exciting, lifeful, fun, amazing and best year of my life. I cannot explain how much I loved this past year. It was like I was on top of a mountain looking down at my previous years. I will miss 2009, it was full of so many incredible and unforgettable adventures and experiences with new friends and people I love. So lets take a look at the best year of my life on a month to month basis, and see how I got to where I am today. To see any pics from 2009, just go to that months posts in the sidebar.

JANUARY: The year didn't start out so great, because January is when I experienced my first kidney stone. No fun lol. However January quickly became one of the most memorable months in my life when I got a visit from a certain two people... Jared and Elizabeth! We all know where that went. I started to be true to myself, allow me to be ME and I got my first boyfriend. I also planned my first trip to visit Jared's family. I met some new friends in January as well... Amanda, Bethany, Olivia and Travis. :)

FEBRUARY: At the start of the month I went to Salisbury University and spent the weekend in the dorm and had a blast with some aquaintances. It was cool, and fun to experience that :) Also in February, after many many years, Ashley Smith and I reconnected, and now to this day she is like family :) And finally to round out the month, I made my very first (of many) trip to Asheville, NC to see Jared and his family.

MARCH: The month got off to a very white start, with a great snowstorm. Then it was off to Asheville again to see Jared and his family. However, I also went down because Jared and I drove down to Atlanta, and I saw my first Britney Spears concert :) That was so amazing. I also met Yonas Michael and we still talk to this day. March ended on a low note for me however, when Jared and I seemed to have ended our relationship. At the end of the month, Jared and I saw Britney in DC.

APRIL: Ok, April definitely is the month that opened the door to EVERYTHING. I don't even know where to begin... let's see, in the start of April, Jared and I worked out our issues. I made plans to move down to Asheville. Probably the most defining moment of the month was when I met Courtney for the first time. We knew eachother for like 20 seconds and then she took me to Christie White's birthday party. This is the night, the party that changed it all. I met John Cornett, Christie, Dan, Elle, Amber, and so many more people that changed my life forever, and are still a major factor in my life today. At the end of the month, Jared and I ended our relationship. And then I finally met you know who... Nic. Lol. I met him at Old Love Point Park, he was sitting on top of one of the playsets, like a Prince sitting on his throne. It was pretty epic haha. We all know what happens a few weeks later :) And finally, guess what started to cause a worldwide frenzy at the end of April 2009? Swine Flu.

MAY: I have no idea how to get thru typing this months review without crying lol. Ah! I love this month so much! I went to a gay club (Town) for the very first time in my life with April. I had a blast :D Olivia, Nic and I rescued a bird from a crazy downpour. It was just sitting in the rain dying lol. Also, I went to a Cinco de Mayo party that I ALMOST didn't go to... but I am very glad I did. Later in the month I adopted Sydney. And finally, May 17, Nic and I became official, which shouldn't have come as a surprise to anyone who knew us since we were inseperable all month basically lol. In May I also announced that I would be going to California with Nic in July. This month is also when I seemingly moved into the Thibodeau household lol :D

JUNE: Hehe, so many fun time this month! Had a graduation party for all the high school seniors , including Nic. That was SO MUCH FUN and boy do we have, er, stories from that night! Haha. Then the next night did change my life in a way... how? Cuz Will came over Nic's and got WASTED... and I had to take care of him all night into the morning. That started his and my extremely volatile friendship lol. Also in June, I turned 21! BOOOOOO! Haha, but friends did throw me a surprise birthday party. :) June also found me very alone, kinda, as I hurt my hand at work and couldn't work for weeks, and Nic went to Florida for a week and I was alll alone haha. I could not wait for him to come back so I could hug and kiss him and cuddle with him again! :D While he was gone Will and Christie and Nicole and I hung out a lot. Probably the biggest thing to happen in June was the death of Michael Jackson. That is something the world will remember for a very long time. I even wrote all over my car "R.I.P. MJ"

JULY: I went to California with Nic. I had one of the most amazing nights of my life on the Fourth of July with Nic. We were on the beach, watching the fireworks go off... and thats the first time we exchanged those magical words :) one of the best memories of my life. When I returned from San Diego, I came home to an interesting work situation. They had let go about half the employees and gave us Fridays off due to the economy. It stayed like that for the rest of the year. Went to a Kelly Clarkson concert in Delaware with Nic, Christie, Dan, April, Matt and Eric.

AUGUST: I went to Casey's party. Appeared on The Yonas Michael Show on iTunes, went to Mollys going away party and started a bond with Kristianna that will never be broken... thanks to Cooking Mama. At the end of the month Nic and I went to Philly and saw Britney Spears in concert... my third time seeing her this year. However this time I met Felicia, her BEST FRIEND! AH!

SEPTEMBER: Threw Nic a surprise party. Went to Town with Nic and Meghan and Tony M. Went to PA. Pretty straight forward month.

OCTOBER: An amazing month! Phil came down from New York. He, myself, Nic, Will and Elle all went to the March For Equality in DC. That was such an amazing event. I will remember that for the rest of my life. Later in the month, Amanda threw a Halloween party. Everyone was there. We had a blast for sure. That is also where I started to get really close to Kristianna :) Thank goodness for that! At the end of the month was probably one of the most fun periods of the year for me. Homecoming was this month. And although I didn't actually go... I participated in the before and after activities. I went to dinner with Courtney, Nicole, Will, Nic, Amber, Elle and Kristianna at Big Bats for homecoming dinner. We had a blast. Then after dinner, everyone except Elle and I went to homecoming. We went home and just chilled and layed in bed for like 5 hours just talking and bonding. Then we found out that Courtney and Will were coming back over and were spending the night. Long story short, we were up until 4:30am having fun! October continues with the fun! On the 30th, I went to the Halloween party ever! We had sooooooo much fun! I went as a baller. Lol. I was out til 4:45am. It was such a blast :) October started and ended perfectly.

NOVEMBER: Oh boy. November 2009. Well let's see... it didn't start out well or end well. The 4th is when my foot problems began. Before I knew it, I was in a boot and out of work for 3 weeks. This month I also got the new Android phone, The Motorola Droid. I LOVE THIS PHONE SO MUCH! Moving onto the middle of November... is where my year spiraled out of control. This month, Nic and I ended our relationship. I think I said perfectly how I felt about the situation in my post in November, go ahead and look again for a refresher if you want. Needless to say, I didn't post much after that. Most of November was a blur. However, something that wasn't a blur, was Thanksgiving. I spent it with the Thibodeau family. I had two breakdowns after the break up... this was one of them. I was grateful to have a Thanksgiving, especially with the family that excepted and cared for me unconditionally, but in the end, my emotions got to me. But, I had a Thanksgiving, and I am thankful :)

DECEMBER: Helped the Tibs decorate for Christmas. Then in the middle of the month I forced myself to go on a date with a guy I had no interest in. I tried forcing myself to get over Nic. BAD IDEA. It led to my second breakdown. Not gonna detail it... look at December's posts to read the details. A few days after that, I went to DC with Elizabeth. That was a friggin BLAST! :D We had so much fun! She is a nanny for her aunt who works for the government and travels a lot. It helped relieve a lot of stress. I got back and things started looking up. We had a friggin blizzard. Like literally 2 feet of snow. I got snowed in at Nic's for two days. That was fun :) We played in the snow, drank hot chocolate and watched "The Family Stone". Had a great time. I had to dig out my car tho since I was going to Asheville, NC to spend Christmas with Jared and his family. That too was an amazing time. Probably one of the best decisions I made in 2009. The end of the year, New Year's Eve (not mentioned in my blog for good reason) was filled with A LOT of drama. The worst I have ever dealt with in my life probably. I had some fun, but man, was it intense. And thats my December 2009.

Well, thats that. My 2009. Best year of my life. It was primarily a "high" year for me. However, my lowest points in my life probably occured in 2009 as well. But, since 2009 was home to so many extremely perfect moments, it still is easily the best year ever, and those moments continue to lift me up from any "lows" I may encounter today. I can honestly say May 2009- mid November 2009 were all 100% perfect moments. I was happy. The happiest I have ever been in my 21 years of life. It was sinful how perfect life was. And those months are what I carry with me everyday. I hope that soon, maybe 2010, maybe not... I can find something that will take me back to that mental state. I don't know how to get there, or if I should even try. But I do know it's real, I lived it. And I hope 2009 is just the start of my life and happiness. I can only hope that 2010 is just as good. Right now it doesn't seem possible... but if you were to ask me what I thought 2009 would look like at the start of the year, I could have NEVER expected what I lived to happen. And it was great. So 2010, here I come. I can't wait to see what you have in store for me, and for what I get to write about this time next year :) 2010, you have your work cut out for you, 2009 was simply amazing :)

So Far It's Been Fun In Asheville

I got here on Monday and I have been busy and having a blast ever since. Lemme see... on Monday, Jared and Katie picked me up from the airport. Guess what happened? The airlines lost my luggage... as usual lol. It's ok because I was reunited with my things a few hours later. Then even later at night we went to the movies and we saw "Precious" with Elizabeth. Ok movie. Honestly, if I attempted to take the trip day by day... I would fail. It's all been one crazy busy blur. Bed time has been after 2am every night. It was 5am last night/this morning! Lol. That was following a 5 hour convo on the phone from 11:30pm-4:30am. <3

Party with Jamie, Jared and Katie

Christmas shopping with Rachel and Jared

Bought new Nike shoes

Went running all over Asheville doing randomness

Ok I can't think of anything else at the moment, but there's plenty lol. Here are some pics from the party... Jamie and I and then Jared and Jamie. Tonight I am going to see "Avatar" in 3D and then we are supposed to get a bit of ice so I will be coming back to the house instead of going out afterwards. And then tomorrow is Christmas so all that stuff is going down and I'm really excited! :D And then Christmas dinner with the family. Can't wait! Then I leave Saturday... and have endless plans from the moment my plane lands at BWI at 9:30pm lol. That will be talked about at a later time. So until then...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Headed To Asheville

Currently about to head to the airport. Im supposed to arrive in Asheville at 2pm. Come home Saturday. I will update ya tonight or tomorrow once im there. As always my twitter will be updated frequently, so just keep checking that.

Also, pictures and stories of the historic blizzard i just experienced will be posted when i get back.

Blizzard!

Long story short. Right now my family and I are preparing for the snowstorm. I am currently sitting outside the grocery store. They are calling for between 15"-20"+ of snow here starting in a few hours. I'm going to a party tonight. This should be interesting. Then to Nics for the night as I mentioned in a previous post. I'm so excited and slightly anxious at how big this storm looks to be.

UPDATE: Here are some pics from the blizzard!

Looking Up? Maybe.

As you have been reading, my emotional posts have mostly lacked happiness. Well im trying to change that image. You see, the past week has been full of unforeseen twists and turns. From meeting new people, reconnected with past friends, to changing plans that should've made me sad... but in fact caused another exciting door to open. I will admit that i am still going thru a rough time. However, in many ways, these last seven days i believe have been monumental in my efforts to move on. And i want to post this and say to myself, life goes on. You can fight it and try and make the Earth stop spinning, or you can go along with it, go for the ride that goes up and down and see where it takes you. I'm voting I hop back on the ride and just go with it. I feel this way now, but probably wont soon enough. But thats why i am posting this. I want to see for myself, that i wrote this. Prove to myself i CAN feel this way and have a positive outlook. Right now i have sooo many things to look forward to in the coming weeks. So im gonna just focus on that, and let everything else fall in to place, and see where i end up next. :)

DC Pictures; Change of Plans

So here are the pics from DC two weekends ago with Elizabeth. Fun times!











Now... as far as my plans for Asheville, NC. I was supposed to leave Saturday morning and fly down... however it seems the east coast is gonna get slammed with a major winter storm tomorrow night thru Sunday morning. Therefore, I have been forced to change my departure date to Monday. I was down about it, but have since made exciting plans for when the snowstorm arrives. :D Spend the night at Nic's tomorrow night, wake up to snow. Play in it with the family. Come inside and drink hot chocolate by the fire listening to Christmas music and then watching "The Family Stone". It's almost like a dream. I can't wait!

What An Emotional Roller Coaster!

Ugh. So, I don't wanna whine or complain, or anything like that... but DARRNNNNN have I gone on a ride since my last post. I hit a low Saturday night when I went on a "date" with a guy for the first time since Nic. Although, I knew nothing would come from it, I was trying to force myself emotionally away from Nic. It didn't work. In fact, the total opposite happened. I saw him immediately after that at a movie party at Dans house, with about 12 other people. I saw Nic as I do almost every other day... but the date left me emotionally vulnerable, and when I accidently saw Nic texting his new interest, Mat, I became very sad... and then he started talking about plans he had with him. It crushed me. I had to go in the other room and cry secretly, then return and sit back next to Nic and act like nothing had happened. Then he left, there was definite tension, not the good kind, between us by the end of the night. His Facebook stated later that night that he was irritated or something. I went to sleep later that night with a feeling of emptiness, sadness... like a pit had been carved in the pit of my soul. When I woke up, it felt the same. I casually rolled over and grabbed my phone, checked my texts and then got on Facebook... that's when it all goes downhill. I became an emotional wreck, I had to drive down to the beach and sit there alllll morning, crying my eyes out for about 3 hours. Then I was convinced by April to move, and come see her... so I did for about 20 mins... then I got the urge to hang with the one girl that ALWAYS makes me laugh... Kristianna. However, she was working at Subway until 3pm... it was only 12. So I went to Subway, and sat there for 3 hours lol. Then we went to the mall and everything was better. We were laughing so hard we were crying and it hurt. Then we met up randomly with soooo many people and saw "The Princess and the Frog". Then Kris and I and Tim went to Double TT. And then home. I've been on a high ever since... I really needed that. Now... as far as the moving situation... I'm not changing anything yet, but when I go to NC, I will be seriously thinking about it.

Here They Are... The BIG Announcements

Announcement Number 1) I'm gonna make this short and sweet. For Christmas, I will be spending Christmas with Jared and his family in Asheville, NC. I'm very excited to see everyone again! All of my NC friends will be there. I will be there from December 19 - December 26. I already have so many plans. One that I'm very excited about is going to the Biltmore Estate and seeing it all decorated :D

Announcement Number 2) This is definitely a shocker to some. I put it on Facebook last night and loved the replies and texts I got afterwards lol. Basically, starting in January, I will be moving back into the Thibodeau household. I will be a roomie, not a live in boyfriend this time lol. Now, honestly, it will be hard for me at times. Cuz Nic and I are no longer together, and seeing him talk to other guys and knowing hes not mine at the end of the day anymore. It sucks. BUT, I feel its worth it. To have my independence. So I'm gonna try it and see how it goes. If it doesn't work out, I can always move back.

Big Announcements In Twelve Hours

You don't wanna miss this. I'm about to go to bed and sleep WAYYYY in. But when I wake up, I'm going to make two pretty big announcements on here. Both took A LOT of thinking and planning and even soul searching. One more so than the other. Check back at around 1PM for the announcement!

Life Is Beginning Again, And I Have A Lot Of Big Decisions To Make

Ok so since the break up the best way to describe myself would be... a depressed zombie. Now I'm starting to crawl out from the darkness and see some signs of light. Its a process, but I'm doing it. However a lot is happening right now. Even tho we are broken up, I am spending a lot of time at the Thibodeau household. And chilling with them. And I'm loving it. It's getting easier and easier to see Nic. We've talked things out and worked out a good friendship plan :) Hopefully it works as good as we intend it to. I went back to work this week and I'm glad to be back at work. I didn't get much sleep at all this week. A few nights I went to bed around 2:30am and got up at 6:20am. I'm exhausted, but I'm too busy with friends to worry about it. Always on the run doing something. Like last night I went over the Tibs house and helped decorate for Christmas. As seen in the below picture (altho it is blurry its me lol)

After that we had dinner and watched some TV and had fun times. Then today, I went to work and am going BACK over there tonight and chilling for a while, even tho I'm dead tired and need sleep desperately. Haha. THEN, tomorrow I am going to Washington DC to stay with Elizabeth while she visits this weekend. I'm so excited! And guess what? Next week is pretty much already booked every single day. So friggin busy. Now onto some more... serious news...

I have some decisions I need to make. One is private and only one person knows about it. And would change a lot of things... but that one is more of a future thing. The more immediate one is a pretty big deal as well. I've been offered to move somewhere and I really want to. But I don't know if it's whats best for me. I have to think about it and will probably decided in a few days. When anything happens with either of these announcements, of course I will update it. :D

Thanksgiving

So as tough as these past few weeks have been, I had to put that all behind me and allow myself to enjoy Turkey Day. Nic and I may be broken up, but I am very grateful to still be considered a part of the Thibodeau family. Therefore, I spent Thanksgiving with them. It was rough and emotional at times... well most of the time to be honest. From seeing Nic and not being able to go up to him and kiss him and hold his hand and pet his hair, to seeing my old room and seeing some very small differences in the house compared to the last time I had been there. There were good moments as well. Elle really was a source of happiness and laughter for me last night. And Luc was hialrious as usual. Dinner was amazing. Not really any awkward moments all night, just, different moments. At one point in the night it did become too much for me and I needed to get air. So, I went for a walk around the neighborhood... a 2 hour walk. From 8:30pm-10:30pm. It was cold, windy and wet. But it was the escape I needed. I came back and went upstairs and spilled my emotional guts to Elle, and then we cuddled for about and hour. Nic and I spoke very little to eachother. However, I think as time passes and the hurt fades, the conversation hopefully will start to flow again. I do think it was too soon to jump into a hioliday wth them, but I am 100% glad I did it. I am thankful for having a Thanksgiving and wouldn't trade it for the world.

Having A Hard Time... Not In The Mood To Update

I'm really not in the mood to update right now. I actually slightly hate the computer and only tolerate my cell phone and am sick of the TV. I guess I will update on everything when I feel like it. Right now I do not. So follow me on Twitter and even subscribe to my updates in text message form if you want. That is where I'm venting and updating my life regularly.

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Gonna Get Thru This

Simply put, Nic and I have decided to end our relationship. Was it a mutual decision? Not really. It's gonna be hard for a while, especially considering we spent day and night together for 6 months. However, in time, I can only guess that it will get better. I have the deepest respect for him, and I know when things settle down, and all of the questions stop, and the shock wears off, I'm confident I will still be a part of the Thibodeau family. The fact that we share so many friends, close friends could've turned out nasty, but it is managing to work itself out so far and with the way we are handling this, or at least I know I am, our friends should remain neutral in this situation and their opinions of either one of us should remain the same. It's going to be hard. Of course the details do not need to be mentioned. I will be ok, just give me a few weeks.

So Much Insanity... Ok Not Really But Still

You know when you feel like you have a lot to say and you don't but you don't feel like explaining ANYTHING at all? Well that's the mood I'm in. So here's a quick bullet look at what's been going on.

• Last Wednesday somehow hurt my foot.
• Called out Thursday and went to docs
• Doc said it was serious and was put in a boot and told I was told I couldn't work the following week (now this week)
• Got the Droid
• Haven't worked all week
• Doctor says he isn't sure he's ready to send me back to work even tho I need to go back.
• MRI tomorrow
• Podiatrist appointment Monday to see if I get cleared to go back to work now on TUESDAY :/

There ya go. A quick, bulleted update. Some other personal stuff has been left out for now... but I may discuss it at a later time if I feel like it.

My New Droid

I will talk about this at length tomorrow. This is to just inform you that today the Motorola Droid went on sale and of course I got one lol. I'm actually writing this post on it right now! This thing is a beast to be reckoned with and its gonna take a few days to figure out how to handle this baby properly. But right now I'm loving every moment of it :) More to come tomorrow.

Wowsers!

Ok sooooooooo I have a million things to update you all on. This past weekend was amazing. So quick overview, since I am a lazy typer.

Friday: Went to the party, had a great time. Went as a baller :P. We danced a lot. Learned a new dance to Britney Spears song "3". It was so much fun. Then when the party was over, I spent some time with friends I really didn't know and we talked around the outdoor fireplace until 4am. Then Amber and I went to McDonald's and I finally go to bed at 4:45am. Here are some pics.





Saturday: Slept in. Had Courtney over so she and I could hand out candy to the little kids. Then Christie, Amber, Eric and Dan over and joined us after. Mostly everyone except Dan lol. We had an amazing night of discovering eachother and bonding on a deep emotional level. Tears were even shed. It was simply amazing :) Here are 2 pics of Courtney and I handing out candy.



Sunday: Football <3 Ravens smashed the undefeated Broncos. Great game. Then I went out to dinner with April at R's and then we came back for a bit and hung out at Nic's until she left and I went to bed.

Rest of the week: I don't think anything exciting happened on Monday. Tuesday either. But oh boy was today (Wednesday) a different story. LLLOOONNNNGGGGG story short, woke up with a pin sized pain at the bottom of my left foot. By midday it was swollen and bluish and hurt all around. And don't even think about touching it! SO PAINFUL! So I went to urgent care and they couldn't figure it out. So they gave me meds and told me to stay off of it. I can't work tomorrow. And that sucks hardcore cuz I am about to get fired for missing so many days :( I don't know what to do. So I am worried about my job AND my foot. Ugh. Anyway pics from this past weekend coming soon.