Thanksgiving

So as tough as these past few weeks have been, I had to put that all behind me and allow myself to enjoy Turkey Day. Nic and I may be broken up, but I am very grateful to still be considered a part of the Thibodeau family. Therefore, I spent Thanksgiving with them. It was rough and emotional at times... well most of the time to be honest. From seeing Nic and not being able to go up to him and kiss him and hold his hand and pet his hair, to seeing my old room and seeing some very small differences in the house compared to the last time I had been there. There were good moments as well. Elle really was a source of happiness and laughter for me last night. And Luc was hialrious as usual. Dinner was amazing. Not really any awkward moments all night, just, different moments. At one point in the night it did become too much for me and I needed to get air. So, I went for a walk around the neighborhood... a 2 hour walk. From 8:30pm-10:30pm. It was cold, windy and wet. But it was the escape I needed. I came back and went upstairs and spilled my emotional guts to Elle, and then we cuddled for about and hour. Nic and I spoke very little to eachother. However, I think as time passes and the hurt fades, the conversation hopefully will start to flow again. I do think it was too soon to jump into a hioliday wth them, but I am 100% glad I did it. I am thankful for having a Thanksgiving and wouldn't trade it for the world.