What An Emotional Roller Coaster!

Ugh. So, I don't wanna whine or complain, or anything like that... but DARRNNNNN have I gone on a ride since my last post. I hit a low Saturday night when I went on a "date" with a guy for the first time since Nic. Although, I knew nothing would come from it, I was trying to force myself emotionally away from Nic. It didn't work. In fact, the total opposite happened. I saw him immediately after that at a movie party at Dans house, with about 12 other people. I saw Nic as I do almost every other day... but the date left me emotionally vulnerable, and when I accidently saw Nic texting his new interest, Mat, I became very sad... and then he started talking about plans he had with him. It crushed me. I had to go in the other room and cry secretly, then return and sit back next to Nic and act like nothing had happened. Then he left, there was definite tension, not the good kind, between us by the end of the night. His Facebook stated later that night that he was irritated or something. I went to sleep later that night with a feeling of emptiness, sadness... like a pit had been carved in the pit of my soul. When I woke up, it felt the same. I casually rolled over and grabbed my phone, checked my texts and then got on Facebook... that's when it all goes downhill. I became an emotional wreck, I had to drive down to the beach and sit there alllll morning, crying my eyes out for about 3 hours. Then I was convinced by April to move, and come see her... so I did for about 20 mins... then I got the urge to hang with the one girl that ALWAYS makes me laugh... Kristianna. However, she was working at Subway until 3pm... it was only 12. So I went to Subway, and sat there for 3 hours lol. Then we went to the mall and everything was better. We were laughing so hard we were crying and it hurt. Then we met up randomly with soooo many people and saw "The Princess and the Frog". Then Kris and I and Tim went to Double TT. And then home. I've been on a high ever since... I really needed that. Now... as far as the moving situation... I'm not changing anything yet, but when I go to NC, I will be seriously thinking about it.