Thanksgiving

So as tough as these past few weeks have been, I had to put that all behind me and allow myself to enjoy Turkey Day. Nic and I may be broken up, but I am very grateful to still be considered a part of the Thibodeau family. Therefore, I spent Thanksgiving with them. It was rough and emotional at times... well most of the time to be honest. From seeing Nic and not being able to go up to him and kiss him and hold his hand and pet his hair, to seeing my old room and seeing some very small differences in the house compared to the last time I had been there. There were good moments as well. Elle really was a source of happiness and laughter for me last night. And Luc was hialrious as usual. Dinner was amazing. Not really any awkward moments all night, just, different moments. At one point in the night it did become too much for me and I needed to get air. So, I went for a walk around the neighborhood... a 2 hour walk. From 8:30pm-10:30pm. It was cold, windy and wet. But it was the escape I needed. I came back and went upstairs and spilled my emotional guts to Elle, and then we cuddled for about and hour. Nic and I spoke very little to eachother. However, I think as time passes and the hurt fades, the conversation hopefully will start to flow again. I do think it was too soon to jump into a hioliday wth them, but I am 100% glad I did it. I am thankful for having a Thanksgiving and wouldn't trade it for the world.

Having A Hard Time... Not In The Mood To Update

I'm really not in the mood to update right now. I actually slightly hate the computer and only tolerate my cell phone and am sick of the TV. I guess I will update on everything when I feel like it. Right now I do not. So follow me on Twitter and even subscribe to my updates in text message form if you want. That is where I'm venting and updating my life regularly.

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Gonna Get Thru This

Simply put, Nic and I have decided to end our relationship. Was it a mutual decision? Not really. It's gonna be hard for a while, especially considering we spent day and night together for 6 months. However, in time, I can only guess that it will get better. I have the deepest respect for him, and I know when things settle down, and all of the questions stop, and the shock wears off, I'm confident I will still be a part of the Thibodeau family. The fact that we share so many friends, close friends could've turned out nasty, but it is managing to work itself out so far and with the way we are handling this, or at least I know I am, our friends should remain neutral in this situation and their opinions of either one of us should remain the same. It's going to be hard. Of course the details do not need to be mentioned. I will be ok, just give me a few weeks.

So Much Insanity... Ok Not Really But Still

You know when you feel like you have a lot to say and you don't but you don't feel like explaining ANYTHING at all? Well that's the mood I'm in. So here's a quick bullet look at what's been going on.

• Last Wednesday somehow hurt my foot.
• Called out Thursday and went to docs
• Doc said it was serious and was put in a boot and told I was told I couldn't work the following week (now this week)
• Got the Droid
• Haven't worked all week
• Doctor says he isn't sure he's ready to send me back to work even tho I need to go back.
• MRI tomorrow
• Podiatrist appointment Monday to see if I get cleared to go back to work now on TUESDAY :/

There ya go. A quick, bulleted update. Some other personal stuff has been left out for now... but I may discuss it at a later time if I feel like it.

My New Droid

I will talk about this at length tomorrow. This is to just inform you that today the Motorola Droid went on sale and of course I got one lol. I'm actually writing this post on it right now! This thing is a beast to be reckoned with and its gonna take a few days to figure out how to handle this baby properly. But right now I'm loving every moment of it :) More to come tomorrow.

Wowsers!

Ok sooooooooo I have a million things to update you all on. This past weekend was amazing. So quick overview, since I am a lazy typer.

Friday: Went to the party, had a great time. Went as a baller :P. We danced a lot. Learned a new dance to Britney Spears song "3". It was so much fun. Then when the party was over, I spent some time with friends I really didn't know and we talked around the outdoor fireplace until 4am. Then Amber and I went to McDonald's and I finally go to bed at 4:45am. Here are some pics.





Saturday: Slept in. Had Courtney over so she and I could hand out candy to the little kids. Then Christie, Amber, Eric and Dan over and joined us after. Mostly everyone except Dan lol. We had an amazing night of discovering eachother and bonding on a deep emotional level. Tears were even shed. It was simply amazing :) Here are 2 pics of Courtney and I handing out candy.



Sunday: Football <3 Ravens smashed the undefeated Broncos. Great game. Then I went out to dinner with April at R's and then we came back for a bit and hung out at Nic's until she left and I went to bed.

Rest of the week: I don't think anything exciting happened on Monday. Tuesday either. But oh boy was today (Wednesday) a different story. LLLOOONNNNGGGGG story short, woke up with a pin sized pain at the bottom of my left foot. By midday it was swollen and bluish and hurt all around. And don't even think about touching it! SO PAINFUL! So I went to urgent care and they couldn't figure it out. So they gave me meds and told me to stay off of it. I can't work tomorrow. And that sucks hardcore cuz I am about to get fired for missing so many days :( I don't know what to do. So I am worried about my job AND my foot. Ugh. Anyway pics from this past weekend coming soon.

Plans, A Blueprint To My Next Year (Quite Possibly My Most Amazing Post Ever)

So really the only eventful moment I had this week was The FOX News channel, yes the national one, came to PRS Guitars and hung out there all day. That was pretty awesome :) I saw a news anchor I watch all the time on TV and saw how the whole behind the scenes thing goes down. Pretty cool. Other than that, I had a pretty uneventful week. My weekend, however, is looking to be quite the opposite. Today, Friday, I am downloading a boat load of new music and then gonna head out and pick up Will and we are gonna go to the mall and find a costume for tonight's costume party. I am debating between being Lady Gaga or a cheerleader with pom pom's. I was leaning towards Lady Gaga earlier in the week. Now I am leaning towards the cheerleader. I only have a few more hours until the party tho so I need to hurry! After the party, who friggin knows what I'm gonna get into. Not trouble tho, that's for sure.
Tomorrow after hopefully sleeping in, Will and I are gonna go to the movies. I don't know what we are gonna see since he wants to see "Paranormal Activity" and I refuse to see that lol. I guess we will see. Nic has school and then work after so that's that.
Sunday's plans compose of one word. Football.

Now... I'm gonna go wayyyyy into the future, a week from now, next Friday. That's when the DROID is released. I cannot tell you how excited I am for this! If I wore "panties", I'd cream them lol. I can't contain myself. The part that sucks tho is that while everyone else is going to be paying $200 for the DROID, I will have to pay about $1000 for the same phone. Yes that's 3 zero's :(. Why? Because my contract with them doesn't end til December 2010... so I have to pay full retail price of the phone and also a penalty for terminating my contract prematurely. I sure hope it's worth it!

Now let's look even further into the future. January. I am 99% sure I will be taking hip hop dance lessons at AACC. I am so excited but just need to find out the total cost. Hopefully, it will be affordable.

Wanna go even further into the future? Well ok then :P I need to make more friends. Now, I know what you are thinking... I already have a ton and am always busy. True. But, most of my friends are moving away next summer. So i need to start making new ones, that plan on staying local, so when my now amazing friends leave me, I have friends still here to keep me going. It's gonna be interesting, but I look forward to seeing who is in my life this time next year.

And finally, here are some things I plan on doing/accomplishing in the future, however with no set date or goal in time. I want to redo my blog. Change the look and design. Make it more me "now" rather than 2 years ago lol. I need to tone up, lead a healthier life. I need to get some schedule or organization to my life. Like a workout and diet regimen, extra curricular activities. Get involved. I want to become an active member in the volunteer/LGBTQ community. Help those that are cast off to the side or hurt or need help for being who they are.
I am hoping all of the goals come to fruition, but when is a different story. We shall see. :)

Now, I think that's all for now. Gotta go shower up and head out and get these plans moving... starting with tonight! :D

Unexpected Fun Times! :D

So lets try and make this a long story that one that becomes very short. So Thursday I go to my moms to spend some time there and spend the night. Nothing out of the ordinary Thursday. On Friday, I slept in. And then later in the day I came home/back to Nic's and I showered and got ready to go to the Drag Show Pageant at AACC. I was sooo excited for it lol. So we get there and it's a full house. The show was so fun! Lol. Here Nic and I are with our very good friend Daniel. He was an amazing Lady Gaga. It was so weird seeing him like that!


And here's a quick look at Daniel and what he looks like without makeup... or clothes on lol.

Well after that fun night... Nic and I came home and pretty much crashed (from what I can remember).
Saturday was where unexpected fun happened. You see... everyone I know was going to home coming Saturday night. Well I had a migraine all day. All I did was lay on the couch all day. Then my mom was nice enough to come and drop off some meds and I took them and was feeling better because I went to dinner with Courtney, Nicole, Will, Nic, Amber, Elle and Kristianna at Big Bats for homecoming dinner. We had a blast. Then after dinner, everyone except Elle and I went to homecoming. We went home and just chilled and layed in bed for like 5 hours just talking and bonding. Then we found out that Courtney and Will were coming back over and were spending the night. Long story short, we were up until 4:30am having fun and taking pics. :D





Sunday was a good chill day. Slept in until a little after 12 noon, when Will proceeded to wake me up lol. Then we just chilled all day until I took him home. Good times. :)

The Day Is Finally, Almost Here.

Verizon Wireless just released this ad and pretty much tore a new one in Apple's iPhone rear end. I love how Verizon is being so aggressive with their ad for their new Droid phone coming very soon. I have been waiting for this thing since Spring!



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Party Time!... And Football!

So Amanda threw a party last night and it was pretty fun. I was down about some stuff... but it didn't ruin the night. At some points I was crying from laughing so hard :) I love when that happens. A lot of pictures were taken and I'm sure they will find their way onto the net. Once that happens, I will be sure to update this post with some of them :)
UPDATE: PICTURES ADDED







Now to today, it's Sunday... and when it's fall season, you know what that means! FOOTBALL! Christie and Courtney are coming over to our unheated house today to watch the game. It's been in the 40s all week and I HATE it. It's so cold in here! Hopefully all of my jumping and cheering for the game will warm me up.

Bleh

Starting to feel better... but also thinking a lot too. I hate thinking lol. It gets so, ugh. Anyway, tonight we had a movie night with Will and Courtney. And then we went to McDonald's, came back and played some games and did random stuff. I talked to Elle's future girlfriend Hanna, and messed around on the computer for a bit and decided to post on here. I've downloaded a few songs tonight that I like :) It amazes me how amazing Lil Wayne can be on other peoples songs. Its been so cold! Like highs in the 40s and rain for the past 3 days. I hate. And it's gonna be like that all weekend as well. Ewwww lol. Wow this post has been completely random... OH! I forgot! Apparently, instead of being comfortably behind my ribcage, one of my kidneys is in the center of my body... WTH!? Lol. Anyway, that's all for tonight :P

This Past Weekend In Pictures and Video

Click the link below to see some fun things that went down this past weekend with Phil and the National March For Equality.
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Also, here are 2 vids from this weekend... one of Phil playing Guitar Hero and the other from the March in DC.

Pictures Coming Tomorrow

This was one CRAZY weekend! Here are 3 pics out of A LOT that you can expect to see tomorrow. This is to just wet your appetite ;)






UPDATE: I AM SICK AND WILL UPLOAD PICS TOMORROW OR THURSDAY. PICS UP ON FACEBOOK IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND ON THERE THO.

An Amazing Weekend; My Poor Mom

This has been an absolutely amazing weekend. Phil came down from New York and boy have we all had a great time this weekend! Today we went to the National March For Equality in DC. It was so amazing. I will have details and pics for everyone tomorrow.

My mom has some of the worst luck with her health. I don't wanna get into details, but definitely my mom deserves a break from all of this :(

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NATIONAL EQUALITY MARCH

It's not driven by religion. It's not driven by preference. Simply put... it's driven by law. This will be the first time I have ever stepped up, and taken action, and hopefully it will be in a big way, along with thousands of others from around the country.

Equal protection in all matters governed by civil law in all 50 states. We will accept no less and will work until it is achieved. Equality Across America exists to support grassroots organizing in all 435 Congressional Districts to achieve full equality.

BARACK OBAMA. HE WILL BE THERE.

We are guaranteed equal protection under the 14th Amendment of the US Constitution. Free and equal people do not bargain for or prioritize our rights. Full equality necessarily includes all members of the LGBT community and encompasses, but is not limited to:

* The right to work our jobs and go to school free of harassment and discrimination.
* The right to safety in our daily lives, and protection from hate crimes.
* The right to equitable healthcare, and the right to donate blood.
* The right to equitable immigration policies.
* The right to marry.
* The right to serve in the military openly.

Many bills currently exist to address some of these issues, but we do not support a piecemeal strategy. We seek one federal solution to full equality.

LADY GAGA. SHE WILL BE THERE.


As members of every race, class, faith, and community, we see the struggle for LGBT equality as part of a larger movement for peace and social justice. The National Equality March is an important event to show support for full equality on the door step of those who can make that happen: the Congress of the United States. It will be held October 10-11, 2009 in Washington, DC and each Congressional District Action Team will mobilize its community to go to DC.



The 14th Amendment says:
"All persons born or naturalized in the United States, and subject to the jurisdiction thereof, are citizens of the United States and of the State wherein they reside. No State shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States; nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws."

Did you see a mention of skin color, sexual orientation, or sexual identity. It says if you are born in America... and that's it. And that's what I, WE, are demanding.


SUNDAY, OCTOBER 11


I WILL BE THERE. WILL YOU?

Chillin With The Gang

So tonight Nic, Eric, Dan, Christie and I went to the mall and we had dinner and then we walked around the mall for a bit and then we saw "Zombieland". It was ok. A lot of gore which I don't like but it had funny parts. Being with the original gang though is what I enjoyed the most. Ever since Eric left for college things haven't been the same. So it's good to hang with Eric and everyone :). I love weekends so much and to this day I am very grateful I chose to stay where I am and not accept anything different for now. Right now, I have everything perfectly placed for where my life is right now. :)
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Uh Oh... Deep Thoughts and Realization

So sometimes I get into my own little world and I start living in my own fantasy of a life. It's still reality, for the most part, but my mind can add some things and twist others. That happened to ne tonight. It kinda hit me like a small bag of bricks. I know things, but with this particular thing, it seems as if my mind had chosen to leave out certain parts of reality. So I had to be gently reminded. They probably had no idea they were bringing me back to reality. But they were. And so I needed to check myself and quickly. And I did, but it kinda hurt. I'm probably making this a bigger deal then it really is. It's just kinda hard. Anyway, things will probably be better in the morning. Hopefully.

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Lots of People Over

I'm really tired. And feeling quite lazy. However, I feel like posting that today Veronica, Jared, Joey, Eric, Amber, Will, Christie, Dan, Molly, Daniel and Hannah were over. Fun times. Just thought i'd share. Lol.

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Will I Be Going?

...Stay tuned to Micvachon.com and my Twitter.

Good Week So Far

So... this has been a pretty good, somewhat chill week thus far. On Monday, after an easy day at work, I came home and chilled with Nic and just had a lazy night browsing the net looking up any and all information I could find about Britney's new Song "3". Then on Tuesday I went to work and EVERYBODY was texting me saying they heard "3" online or on the radio, but I hadn't yet cuz it premiered while I was at work. So at lunch I rushed back to the house, quickly downloaded it and have been listening to it non stop since lol. Yesterday, Wednesday, I had another easy day at work and afterwards did pretty much nothing. And today... work was DEAD. Then after work I came over my moms and am here to watch our TV shows and spend the night here tonight. This weekend, Eric and Molly are coming home from college, so I know Nic and I are excited about spending some time with them :D