Thanksgiving

So as tough as these past few weeks have been, I had to put that all behind me and allow myself to enjoy Turkey Day. Nic and I may be broken up, but I am very grateful to still be considered a part of the Thibodeau family. Therefore, I spent Thanksgiving with them. It was rough and emotional at times... well most of the time to be honest. From seeing Nic and not being able to go up to him and kiss him and hold his hand and pet his hair, to seeing my old room and seeing some very small differences in the house compared to the last time I had been there. There were good moments as well. Elle really was a source of happiness and laughter for me last night. And Luc was hialrious as usual. Dinner was amazing. Not really any awkward moments all night, just, different moments. At one point in the night it did become too much for me and I needed to get air. So, I went for a walk around the neighborhood... a 2 hour walk. From 8:30pm-10:30pm. It was cold, windy and wet. But it was the escape I needed. I came back and went upstairs and spilled my emotional guts to Elle, and then we cuddled for about and hour. Nic and I spoke very little to eachother. However, I think as time passes and the hurt fades, the conversation hopefully will start to flow again. I do think it was too soon to jump into a hioliday wth them, but I am 100% glad I did it. I am thankful for having a Thanksgiving and wouldn't trade it for the world.

Having A Hard Time... Not In The Mood To Update

I'm really not in the mood to update right now. I actually slightly hate the computer and only tolerate my cell phone and am sick of the TV. I guess I will update on everything when I feel like it. Right now I do not. So follow me on Twitter and even subscribe to my updates in text message form if you want. That is where I'm venting and updating my life regularly.

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Gonna Get Thru This

Simply put, Nic and I have decided to end our relationship. Was it a mutual decision? Not really. It's gonna be hard for a while, especially considering we spent day and night together for 6 months. However, in time, I can only guess that it will get better. I have the deepest respect for him, and I know when things settle down, and all of the questions stop, and the shock wears off, I'm confident I will still be a part of the Thibodeau family. The fact that we share so many friends, close friends could've turned out nasty, but it is managing to work itself out so far and with the way we are handling this, or at least I know I am, our friends should remain neutral in this situation and their opinions of either one of us should remain the same. It's going to be hard. Of course the details do not need to be mentioned. I will be ok, just give me a few weeks.

So Much Insanity... Ok Not Really But Still

You know when you feel like you have a lot to say and you don't but you don't feel like explaining ANYTHING at all? Well that's the mood I'm in. So here's a quick bullet look at what's been going on.

• Last Wednesday somehow hurt my foot.
• Called out Thursday and went to docs
• Doc said it was serious and was put in a boot and told I was told I couldn't work the following week (now this week)
• Got the Droid
• Haven't worked all week
• Doctor says he isn't sure he's ready to send me back to work even tho I need to go back.
• MRI tomorrow
• Podiatrist appointment Monday to see if I get cleared to go back to work now on TUESDAY :/

There ya go. A quick, bulleted update. Some other personal stuff has been left out for now... but I may discuss it at a later time if I feel like it.

My New Droid

I will talk about this at length tomorrow. This is to just inform you that today the Motorola Droid went on sale and of course I got one lol. I'm actually writing this post on it right now! This thing is a beast to be reckoned with and its gonna take a few days to figure out how to handle this baby properly. But right now I'm loving every moment of it :) More to come tomorrow.

Wowsers!

Ok sooooooooo I have a million things to update you all on. This past weekend was amazing. So quick overview, since I am a lazy typer.

Friday: Went to the party, had a great time. Went as a baller :P. We danced a lot. Learned a new dance to Britney Spears song "3". It was so much fun. Then when the party was over, I spent some time with friends I really didn't know and we talked around the outdoor fireplace until 4am. Then Amber and I went to McDonald's and I finally go to bed at 4:45am. Here are some pics.





Saturday: Slept in. Had Courtney over so she and I could hand out candy to the little kids. Then Christie, Amber, Eric and Dan over and joined us after. Mostly everyone except Dan lol. We had an amazing night of discovering eachother and bonding on a deep emotional level. Tears were even shed. It was simply amazing :) Here are 2 pics of Courtney and I handing out candy.



Sunday: Football <3 Ravens smashed the undefeated Broncos. Great game. Then I went out to dinner with April at R's and then we came back for a bit and hung out at Nic's until she left and I went to bed.

Rest of the week: I don't think anything exciting happened on Monday. Tuesday either. But oh boy was today (Wednesday) a different story. LLLOOONNNNGGGGG story short, woke up with a pin sized pain at the bottom of my left foot. By midday it was swollen and bluish and hurt all around. And don't even think about touching it! SO PAINFUL! So I went to urgent care and they couldn't figure it out. So they gave me meds and told me to stay off of it. I can't work tomorrow. And that sucks hardcore cuz I am about to get fired for missing so many days :( I don't know what to do. So I am worried about my job AND my foot. Ugh. Anyway pics from this past weekend coming soon.