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There are simply no words to describe how I feel. This past week or so has been one of the best, eye opening, worst, most confusing, heart wrenching most emotionally confusing time of my life. I'm very uncertain and confused about every aspect of life now. It's time that I make some decisions. Make them and freaking move on! I've been pussy footing around on making these decisions for years now... but it's time. I can't do this anymore. I need to make up my mind and forget the other options that exist. Today, I'm angry, sad and feel used and loved. Confusing right? I'm even relieved for the same reason im all the other emotions. It's so confusing I can't even grasp it. I dunno. I hope things get better soon. Really soon.